Is our country in good hands? Will my son survive his run in the Air Force? Are they going to choose me for that job? Ten years ago these things would have left me sleepless at night and talking about it all day, but not anymore. It’s not that I don’t care about these things. I have just been blessed with a different outlook.
I grew up knowing there was a God but my real faith journey happened as an adult. My life was following my plans. I had a great job, a wonderful husband and two children, and I lived close to my family so I could see them any time. Then my husband was recruited into a different company which was a great opportunity for him. Although we never spoke about prayer at this point in our lives, I was praying for him and the offer was the answer I needed to leave everything and support him. It meant we had to move away but we were excited for a new life adventure.
This move began a considerably different way of life with no second income and no family within miles. To top it all off, my third pregnancy ended in a miscarriage which was devastating. Comments to comfort me were sometimes more hurtful than helpful. What did I do wrong? Would I be able to have more children? I felt so guilty and imperfect. I was an absolute mess! I needed answers so I started to ask God for them.
It was a great thing I started a relationship with God because I was at the top end of a downward spiral that I wasn’t going to be able to control. I suffered another miscarriage and we were transferred even further away from our family. Then the company my husband worked for was struggling which severely affected his income. We now had financial troubles on top of it all. This was NOT the life I planned and if God planned this, He got it totally wrong!
Well, He didn’t have it wrong at all. I learned so many lessons from my experiences and now I know that it was His entire plan for good even though I couldn’t see it at the time. I have four beautiful and talented children. I have a great job again and my husband works for a company that is phenomenal to him and to our family. We live even further away from family now but we have learned that we are actually a little closer because we don’t take each other for granted anymore.
The new outlook I have been blessed with is faith. When I catch myself worrying I just give it to God in prayer. I have learned that God never takes anything away without giving you something better in return. You can’t always see it or don’t always know His plan and it certainly doesn’t always make sense but He is there if you want him to be. Just ask Him, trust Him, keep believing and hang on for a wonderful ride!
